weight

I feel like we have lost a couple weeks here in the Hostetler household...sickness, tensions, stress, company.

With the exception of a few days, my days have consisted of doing what was necessary for our family to survive or staying out of the way so that it could survive in spite of me.

I have missed having thoughts that have substance.

But today I am thankful for these words that Wes pointed to on his blog not only for their raw desire and courage but for the invitation back to the world of the deep, a world with weight...I have missed it.

I Will Not Die an Unlived Life
By Dawna Markova

I will not die an unlived life.
I will not live in fear
of falling or catching fire.
I choose to inhabit my days,
to allow my living to open me,
to make me less afraid,
more accessible,
to loosen my heart
until it becomes a wing,
a torch, a promise.
I choose to risk my significance,
to live so that which came to me as seed
goes to the next as blossom,
and that which came to me as blossom,
goes on as fruit.